Eat less! I got about 15 days left to the big day..

Oh well.. not my big day though. It's my cussie's wedd, and I will be her JIEMEI(: Quite stressful for me cause I can picture how small size her other JIEMEIs will be. And I'm like the extra outstanding giant there -.-

Furthermore, I yet to get myself a gown for both the occasions.

I can so imagine those stupid aunties of mine saying me, like how they always do during CNY. They just love to compare so much. Why don't they compare their saggy bust with mine?! Irritants.

GOSH! I hate food, I hate fats. Fats are the most disgusting, grossest thing in this living world; ranking side by side with cockroaches! EERYER.

Young teens of or about my age that are filled with fats and do not make an effort to do anything to improve their shape, looks, and health. Ought to be gunshot! Get a life fuckers, it's reality dude!

No matter how much someone says that they do not care about the physical appearance, THEY STILL DO! They are lying to make you feel better. And you're naive enough to trust their dumb lies.

Appearance still take certain percentage in this society. Whether in terms of work, relationship, friendship, self-confidence..

ARGH, I just got to work hard. So much more to lose. And one thing, I hate periods! It makes me hungry all the time, end up digging for food.

And Moma, JIAYOU too! I know you're always bothered by your figure.
But no matter what, the fact is: You're the prettiest and youngest looking Moma whom look like an elder sister of mine :D


Below are pictures which may or may not motivate you to lost those excess FATS.





















SO PEEPS, STOP BEING A POTATO COUCH, GET UP AND MOVE.
There's always hope for tomorrow if you get started today, RIGHT NOW!

A getaway soon! To be anywhere but here.

Just somewhere quiet, cooling, beautiful, nature-like.. Picturing myself lying in huge running field with tall wheat grass. With the warm shines and orangie rays from the sun, accompanying by cooling breeze from the wind.

And I will take tons of pictures, smell the pleasant nature breathe, watch the clouds flood by slowly. I want to picture this, keep this as my life goal. Think of those beautiful images, lovely memories. Work on it!

I know this is daydreaming but someday it will be a dream come true..

But still he's my dearest. My lover.

He misses me every single seconds. He can't wait for me to smack him in the ass. He loves it when I yell into his ears. He cry when I walk away from him.

He forever act cute to me (:

Oh.. Most of all.. He can't live without me.

Sadly, the true fact is neither can I.

His favourite pastime is to stalk me.

But compared to me, he's nothing.
Cause I can snap tons of his pictures within seconds!

He got lousy camera skills!
He cut himself off the picture -.- (Maybe he love me too much)




AND HOR! One way or another, I always get to have his fugly pictures, I don't know why. I think I can come out with an album with the title : My B.B.F. (bitchiest brother forever) fugliest moments.

Whatever it is, I'm a happier girl with him around :D

Piss-sk, have I slim down from the look of my pictures above?! I know lah, still fat. But I'm still working on it though :(

Nothing to do? And not knowing yourself well?

Try playing this when you're boreeeed, and lazy to get your ass out of your comfy home :D








CLICK HERE !

"Thought we are friends."

LAUGH OUT LOUD! This phrase in the text which YOU sent me, just gave me that "is it?! Bullshit only. As if" feeling. Crap sia.

Oh.. It's simply clear that in your dictionary of friends isn't me inside. We're just plain colleague, and nothing more than that. We didn't go out for chats, movies, nor shopping before. Just having common interest in tattoo that we went to put tattoo together just that once! Other than that, after work hours.. YOU and your good friend flew off like bullet train.

When was the last time we went together for lunch together? (Exclude Team Lunch) When was the last time I once spoke to YOU for more than 10 proper sentence? (Exclude work questions) When was the last time we waited for each other at 6PM?

Sad to say, I can hardly recall when.

So don't come and tell me this rubbish crap that "I tot we r frens" or "i donno y it turns out tis way".

CHHHHEEEE-Y!

When YOU sent the first text to me, YOU already got the mentality to start an argument. And I odd to protect myself because there wasn't any fault of mine to question/ask YOU and your good friend "why so late?!"

HELLOOO.. It's way pass our lunch break time. So what if YOU all didn't know it's raining. So what if YOU all did try to leave popular earlier. YOU guys are still late! And those who live at the west area will clearly know that, from popular to JTC submit don't need more than 10 minutes walk. And there is shelter all the way from the popular to JTC submit building.

It's not as if when I'm late in the morning, and I say it's raining so I took the longer way to reach office, then YOU don't collect the late fine from me. YOU still do what!

So what nonsense is this..

Are YOU trying to say that, just because I'm not of a higher position than you so I can't question YOU? Well, if YOU don't like it. Maybe YOU can get yourself to sit at Managing Director position, so no one will ever question "where you go" "why so late" "why never come".

Yes, I didn't inform that I was unwell and waiting for both of YOU to return from lunch before I could go off. I can jolly well just leave the office after packing my stuff, however, not being as irresponsible like someone, I stayed on and complete my stuff before I leave. At the same time, waiting for both of YOU to return. YOU guys, didn't inform that YOU will be returning late. Yet blaming me that I didn't inform YOU.

And please, I know the way YOU are. Though I don't completely 100% know YOU well. But those texts are not compose merely by YOU. The mastermind behind is definitely a well pretender and actress.

But whatever, I don't care. Cause someone's leaving for good. YOU going to be how YOU used to be. And we're not friends, just daytime colleagues.

So I don't care about how the fuck you think about my attitude. (Read between the lines)

There's a strong sudden feeling that I miss you.

Felt so much to have a hug from you. To lie on your big & strong shoulder, be in your warm arms, run my hands down your smooth & tanned back ..

Just want to have your touch.


But it's all mentally kept now, no way to turn the clock back because in the end history will repeat itself; like how it used to be.

Don't say I changed heart for other guys, don't say I'm selfish or look down on you. I do love money, for everyone does too. I took you as my center of everything.. My dearest, my love. I know there's so much unhappiness, we struggle so much, argue/ quarrel millions of times.

Baby, I don't want these anymore.. It's so tiring and not blissful at all.





However, time to time, I do miss you. I think of our times and smile to myself. For I know I was once happy before.

Uh-huh,
Still can't see his face..

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It's ..

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You're the best lah! You never threw me alone at the back. You make sure I got companies before you left. You didn't walk by yourself when crossing the huge main roads. You will ensure that I had my meals and a sinful day for me. You would come up with all sorts of funny/ silly stuff that filled my day.

You & Jer made me laugh non-stop.. play so much.. talk so much..



It's so wonderful to have you two back in my life (:


Let's not loose touch again. Promise?!

Some day if 贝贝 and Vin walk out from here, it's time for me to escape too.

For once, I thought there was hope. Yet everything down below when that fucking Ah Pek did this action.

Ah Pek, all I can say is that you got poor judgement, lousy management, idiotic logic!

And I strongly disagree with your decision!


Foul mood now, back off.

Tobacco needed!

My darling is far far away from me again :'(

I really can't help but feel sad. But she's strong when it comes to emotions. Darling, will you feel sad being far from me?

We spoke so much about our future that I want her to be in my future. If both of us did not get married.. I can picture us travelling round the world, enjoying each other company.

Darling.. Why are you so far when I need you here now. Call me when you're feeling me okay, so much to say to you.

Reasons.
Life is filled with reasons or excuses?




Guys drink to forget about the girl while Girls drink to think back about that guy. Guys can forget, cannot forgive but Girls can forgive, cannot forget. When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls. When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristic from other guys.

Make sense?

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I always wonder why parents like to sum up everything into one.. They like to scold all the kids when it's only one kid fault. Is this the meaning for "all for one; one for all" ?!

Do you agree?

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Q: What's common between men and video?
A: Both go backward... forward... backward... forward... backward.... forward... stop and eject.

Q: Wat is the closest thing similar to a woman's period?
A: Your salary, it comes once a month lasts about 5-7 days and if it doesn't come means you are in big trouble.




(Oh well.. It's just a random post. Got no idea what to write cause nothing special happened recently. Just work, school, out, home.) - Blah!

Tired is all that I can say.

I think I can never stop complaining here, which can be so irritating at times.

School is so FUCKED UP. I'm so confuse with the current module, totally catch no balls on Monday's class. The lecturer went like a bullet train, doesn't pause for any of us to finish taking down notes. He doesn't take a break for his speech, he just one shot spilt everything out till the end.

I was so frustrated and exhausted that I gave up during mid lesson. He's like rushing for time, and left the class in mid air, knowing nothing. Such an lousy teacher, he is. SUCKS!

Same goes to work! Sometimes starting of the day just make me "pek chek" already. You never enjoy work if you have such ass-hole colleagues. I wouldn't say all of colleagues are as such. It's just one or less than a hand-full that spoils your day!

Especially recently, things can just go cock up due to one's selfishness on absenting. Already resign, yet doesn't want to do her work properly. If no heart to work already, then why don't just go off!? Why don't just leave a better impression for the others? But made the rest hoping her to leave earlier..

Sometimes, I too, just wish that company could terminate her before her last day. I totally given up on her, and don't feel like talking any sense to her anymore. Seems so pointless. She's just so irresponsible. Will change means will change, it seems like she will never change. And never will she succeed anywhere with her such attitude and work performance.

Irritating!

Nowadays, my timing is totally pack. From morning till night, I can never reach home before 9PM. I miss my Moma, haven been seeing her or talking much with her. Hais, sometimes I just wish to see her smile more. She just has endless blames on herself for the being of ours or the family.

My Darling Delia, will be going back to Aussie on Thursday. Which means I got to wait till mid year or so, before I could see her again. Gona miss her so much. Whenever she leaves, it just makes me want to tear. I almost tear on Sunday when we part for home..

And one thing.. Last Friday, Cat surprise me when he came to fetch me from school. Even more unexpected was what I saw when he asked me to go and take a look what's in the car boot. I scream out loud lah.. It's a Hello Tity - what I meant was Hello Kitty.

So that left me smiling the whole night, kept looking at the pretty doll and ignore his presence.







I often give excuse to myself, finding things to do, place to go. Life shouldn't be this way, should it? Everyday racing round the clock, fighting to put a smile on me, facing others problems and making them mine.

There will be a point of time, whereby you really feel like stopping everything on hand, take a break and find someone to share those pretty moments with you.

In my case, there never will be. Not friends, not boyfriends.
No one (:


Maybe he's the reason, you're an excuse.

Many things run through my mind each time when I think of you. Tried to call, but my pride wouldn't let me dial. I've been waiting patiently. But, you seems to forget that you once told me you would always be there..