The first ever movie that made me doze off while watching! And Bby was snoring at the mids of the show -.- LOUDLY LAH! Yet he can still tell me that he's watching. It must be the 3D goggles that cause our eyes to be so tired lah. But the storyline is good, got some funny and lame parts. STILL, I FELL ASLEEP!

We travel all the way to town, pay money and sleep in the cinema.

My pay is never enough! Today get money, tomorrow money almost half gone. I could hardly recall what I bought that drained my pay away! Where did my money went to? Someone stolen it? Did I accidentally use them to wipe my ass? Or maybe Miki ate them up? I can never have enough money sia.

The one and only album existing!

Made it for Bby as a gift for our 1st month. And seriously, it's bloody hell a lot of work and time spent lah. Not forgetting, lots of money spent too. The total cost is more than buying a ready made one! But he doesnt seems to be excited upon seeing it, effort down the drain?! But I love the album lots, so if he doesnt want. I take!

(Thanks Choy Darling for helping :D )

Super tiring day!

My beloved brother woke me up from my beauty sleep. I caught less than 5hours sleep lah! I had survived through the night, watching my first ever completed-90minutes soccer match. The match was bullshit, the players sucks, the goalkeepers cannot make it (Unlike petr cech *thumbs-up*)! but I won money so overall never regret giving up my sleep for the match.

Before the match, Bby and co were eating at turf city. Maybe steamboat isn't my kind of meal, wasn't speaking or doing anything - Plainly stoning (:

I guess it's my habit of now talking to anyone unless they appoach me first. So I got no idea how Bby find about me, but whatever it is, they're secondary issue. I'm sure they wont affect the relationship much, anyway I'm not dating with them. So nevermind lah, I dont have to go and be or act to be close with them. Got talk can already nah.

Interesting uh !?

S'pore reports 1st flu case

Overall, Singapore still can't escape this disease.
It hit us just like SARS did.


http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_382278.html

I spoke to Delia Darling for 1hour 37min 08 seconds! I totally didn't realise it. We're happily chatting, gossipping, updating. And she held onto my letter for months, it's collecting Perth's dust and growing moulds! I guess by the time she pass it to me, there will be fugues and mushrooms on it. How sweet of her!

Nose blocked. Lips pale in colour. Fingers cold as corpse. Feet filled with dead skins. Skin getting drier. Brain cells dead. Sneezing non-stop. Eyes shutting. Energy drained. Muscles overworked. Body system breakdown. Lungs lack of oxygen. Nails turned purplish. Heart refuses to pump normally.

My partner is missing.
Boyfriend is busy with I-Don't-Know-What.

Possibilities:

• Mobile phone on silent mode (an excuse?!)
• Mobile phone dropped into toilet bowl (if so, he is dumb)
• Mobile phone is dead (who knows?)
• Mobile phone spoilt (might be?!)
• Mobile phone lost/ got stolen (blah blah blah.. )
• Never pay bill so can't SMS. (highly not possible!!)

OR

• He didn't see my texts in the inbox
• He is super duper busy
• He forget to bring his phone with him
• He can't be bothered to reply my texts
• He accidentally delete my texts away
• He is talking on the phone
• He didn't hear the message ring tone
• He borrowed his mobile to his friend
• He thought that he replied me but he actually did not
• He wants me to miss him more so purposely didn't reply me

Hmmm.. I wonder ...

Sorry for not replying tags.
I know they're long overdue. I just didn't get the time to reply them and office network didn't allow me to view them either.

Sorry for all the temper I threw.
I just didn't get to have control over them. I just flare whenever I feel the anger, and I really need to vent them out.

Sorry for being "cold".
I understand that I don't speak up much recently. I will either smile or say "Hi" and "Bye". I choose to shut myself if that makes me feel better and not make the situation worst.

Sorry for not being patient enough.
I will frown whenever I'm kept waiting for a period of time. Ending up in throwing temper or not talking.

Sorry for those endless complains and whining.
I got tons of complains daily, be it whether it's about work or school, friends or family. I just go to my next closest person whom I could turn to, and spill everything out.

Sorry for not being there.
I know that I haven been spending as much time as I used to with certain close ones. It's the thoughts without the movements. The words with empty actions. The meaning without the doings.

Sorry for not being the "Me" whom I used to be.
These years didn't went by kind, for me. The days were tough and the second passed like the minutes. I struggle to survive, only to find no one was there except my wonderful mother. Now it will take me long to be how I was, because those people whom I'm there for isn't here when I needed. My loneliness turns to sadness which slowly changed to anger and hatred, soon ignorance took place. And this explains my current character.

Last of all, Sorry for all the nonsense I've written above. I just need somewhere to store my thoughts so that I can have more storage space in my brain to do other stuff.

Is it two became one? Or is it uno ?

Okay, you love me!

Hello Mirror Me. I read your mind and understand that school has been a bitch. But don't let this bitch fuck you upside down, cause you're a bigger bitch! You should scream at that idiot who touch your lappy, you should cut off that serious jerk's dick. Maybe by doing these you will feel better (:

I tell you ah. You better hang in there hor! Don't you ever fucking think of giving up or I will detach your balls from you okay. Don't think I don't know what doings, I'm watch you *doing that finger to eye- eye to finger action*

So till we meet again, you better be missing me and prevent yourself from skipping class often. Not forgetting, you're always my bitch. The pain in my ass, the dirt in my toe nails, the tar in my lungs.. You'll never leave me! Muahahahaha.. (Siao)

The conversation explains this picture :)




"Why the teddy bear in the picture so small one?!"

"Huh? What teddy? Which picture?"

"Your blog post one lah."
"The girl so big, hug one small teddy"

"Why? Cannot meh?"

"Should be a small girl hug a big teddy what."


Whatever it is, I need my teddy bear.

明知道读后将感觉到哀伤,但我仍然控制不了自己.

Humans are such ironic creatures, some times I laugh at my own foolish. I blame myself for the scenes which I created, I couldn't stop my mind from silly thoughts. It's better to not know anything, or best to know everything?

Am I giving my best? Showing my all? Providing my everything?

I really wonder if I'm good enough.

If my room is as such ...


















I will roll in my room for as long as I could. Paradise

"Hello!" I called Bro, and there he was, about to call me too. This is the wonders between us! He was smiling while walking towards me, still as bitchy as before. And then it was Sushi Time as usual for us :D

Great that nothing had change between us,
I love you.

He will amazingly laugh at me, regardless of the temper I threw.

He would gently give me a hug from behind, and assure me that everything is fine.

He lifts my spirits up when I'm at my lowest.

He makes me felt as though I'm the prettiest, even when I'm fucking ugly.

He gave me courage to face my nastiest days.


He would patiently wait for me without any complains.

He stands by me through my bad times & good times.

He tenderly kiss me on my forehead when the day comes to an end.





He is my Mr. Teddy Bear. My very special friend.

Am I tired or just plain lazy? I've been whine so much to boyfriend, guess soon he will feel that I'm a pain in the ass. I need a long break, away from here. To be at somewhere to laugh and be happy. No work, no stress. No books, no push. No nagging, no complains. Just me and myself. Happy and free. Longing for that day to come.

Why not happy?!
Where got!?

Why not happy?!
Where got!?

Why not happy?!
Where got!?

Why not happy?!
Where got!?

OKAY, NOW I'M NOT HAPPY! fan si ren

To: (That someone whom whine and cry like a pussy at own secret palace)

People may seems to be tough or strong, to you moving on for them seems so easy. But who knows, they may face the same amount of unlimited obstacles which you did. And the greatest difference is they achieve what they wanted and be at where they aimed.

I believe that one day, you too can make it there.

Look at you. You have unknowingly moved on too, definitely did change and your friends cycle is much bigger compared to your past.

Quit whining like a fucked pussy and complain like a fucken whore. You're great, happy. Smiling and perfect, to me.

Before I smack your tits till it swells, you better stop cracking your tiny winy brain to think how miserable your life is.

Last of all, I love you asshole!

Blow my heavy unhappiness away. Lift my spirits, and melt off those hot temper. Those nasty foul mood spoils my day as well as the people around me. Weekends are dark and gloomy, never seems to look forward to everyday, except for the sight of my dearest teddy. The strong hatred of this current cold place is growing deeper, I need to breakout of here soonest!

Go the extra mile in all you do. Speak truthfully. Try not to bear grudges, treasure those around you. Live with honor, and not forgetting to have fun, because one day, your time will run out.

The weather is causing many to be ill recently, and I'm not expectation. Maybe partly it's my unhealthy lifestyle - lack of sleep, taking tobacco, insufficient water intake, improper meals, rarely exercise. Doctor gave 2 days MC, and was refer to take X-ray. Lying there makes me felt like an experiment, feels as if I'm gonna be cut open for examine. Those weird equipments give me the fight. Gosh, I'm losing my pink health. Hate being unwell :(

The day came, that day ends. Though it's special in one way or another. As long as you're around, standing by me, everyday is a special one.

Series of photo shoots of us,
simple gift from a sweet friend,
deeply appreciated - Thanks Kakak.





(Shall post the pictures in my facebook tonight, rushing for class now)

Tomorrow is the day. Decision is final, just have to take thoughts to action. Hopefully none of us going to last minute back out, it's a huge but not harsh decision. We spoke about it for quite some time, talk through about it much. Now the only factor against us - cash.

Another disappointment.You promise not to throw me alone to sleep ever again, least not over this weekend. But everything was just empty words. Thanks so much uh, you never will understand how it feels. Shall head to bed all by myself. Good Night Ginny, sweet dreams & sleep tight. I know tomorrow will be a better day, however, today; tomorrow's yesterday, will never come back again. It will forever be this way in my memory lane, normal as it is, just like any other Saturday. Nothing much, just like that, gone.

I dont feel special, not at all.

Chose to escape into my dreams, it seems much merrier and peaceful there. At least without the thoughts of unhappiness.

What do you know? Nothing.
What do you understand? Nothing
What did you do?Nothing
What are you thinking? Me being unreasonable

Smile taken away on this very special day. "33.8.222.55!"

The love I never had

Everyday I can't wait for work to end, I urge the time to pass faster so that I could have you near me. Your smile brightens my day, and smoothed my anger. Your presence makes me secure and accompanied. Your lamest words caught me laughing non-stop. And your tender care, melts my heart totally.





Even though, my bed seems so cramped up to sleep well at night.

Even though, your snoring sound makes me awake at times.

Even though, you doze off and left me alone through the night.

I still am happy.

You gave me the sweetest kiss on my forehead before you head for bed.

You would pad me to sleep till you unknowingly doze off.

You provide me with the warmest hug through the night.

Last of all, You're the first and the last person I see daily.





"Nobody understands love, It seems to be Universal. Timeless. Yet, it's also very individual, filtered by our own lives and expectations. I don't understand love, and can't understand love, because it's a different thing for each of us."

The night has a thousand eyes, with yours lay the brightest ones

I love taking pictures.

It makes the moment stayed still,
regardless of how much changes there are now,
the pictures still reflect the emotions then.

Looking at photos can turn the time back,
It brings back all those memories at that point of time.

Some can make you laugh loudly,
or you may tear upon thinking back.

Photos are treasures, they make wonders!

(
I smile when I saw this shot)


(I laugh out when I saw this shot)


(Reminds me of mooncake box image)


(I like the effect)


(I feel sweetness)



Photos taken from 36frames.

Dearest Love, time flies so quickly when you're around.

Looking back at the pictures we took, I clearly remember of the places we went, the laughter I had, the things we did together. There never once seems to be any unhappiness between us, maybe just a tiny whiny short tiff but soon after we're laughing at each other nonsense again.


Darling, you do remember our trip to T3?
Just because I said I'd yet to go there.






What about the New York New York?
That scary huge plate of meats!






And where did we went for our breakfast?!








Bby, you're just too good to be true.
Promise me that you would stay and I'll never leave you.
Last of all, the way you look at me makes me feel precious.

AND something special about you; YOU LOVE THE FUGLY SIDE OF ME! (Weird)