*Blank*
I don't feel like writing anything.

I miss my boy.
I miss my bro.
I miss my mom.
I miss my sis.
I miss my bed.
I miss my dog.


Okay, I'm not well.
Mood swings badly nowadays..

家



Grand-mother aka Ah Po
(My Shelter)



I remember; She took me in her arms, cradle me along with children rhythms in dialect, make funny sounds/faces, coax to me to sleep. Those were the tough times she had to pull through with me & cousins while mom goes to work and dad being away.

Grandma house was the place which little sis & I would look forward to every weekend. Because there will be a table filled with our favourite food, and cousins of our age to play with.

I still have the images of us, kids, jumping up and down on Grandpa's bed. Building mattress into a cave shape, make it "our" house, piling up pillows, making so much noise that the adults would always yell at us.

She watch us grow into teenagers, but as we grow older, the days/times which we visit her gets lesser. However, I know that I always have a place to go whenever I'm unhappy being home, her place. A place where I would seek shelter; feel safe, comfort and warmth. I would rant to her about things, and she would lecture me, talk to me..







Mommy aka Mii
(My Superwoman)



I guess everyone would say "Mom is the best" (Maybe not everyone, most). It's not an exception to me, I think my mother is the best.

She gave up her youth days, settled down, started a family. Stopped her studies, came out to work, took care of two stubborn & naughty little girls. She plays a role of a father, as dad had to work overseas soon after I enter primary school.

She's a superwoman, but definitely not an iron woman. There's times that she would break down and silently suffer by herself. She kept all her sorrows inside her, and place a smile on her face whenever she sees us.

I remember vividly those times when mom had to send little angel & I to grandma's place as she needs to work. Mom would kiss on our index fingers, leaving behind lipstick of her lips shape. Little sis & I would take extra care of it, even when we take shower, we will never wet it or wash it off.

Moma is the greatest, without any doubts.



Baby Sister aka Mei
(My Little Angel - Devil @ times)


She plays many different roles in the growing stages of my life.

She would act as an older sister and comfort me, she would be as childish as a 3 years old kid and whine for things that she wants.

At times, she's my closest playmate. Or my pretend-to-be husband & wife. Other times, she can be my #1 enemy; maybe worst, an unknown stranger in the crowd. We could chat whole night or we could not say a single word to each other.

At the end of the day: We're still sisters! We laugh together, we cried together, we consoled each other, we teased one another, we gossip like aunties in the market, we secretly surprise opposites.

Having a sister like her, makes this world a different place for me.



Daddy aka Dii
(My Father)


Father; to most, it means a figure you look up to. With a strong build which ensure you of "everything is fine and safe", gives you the feeling of the protector of the family. The decision maker, the head of the family.

For my family case, it may not entirely be that way.

When I was a little girl, I remember sticking very closely to dad. He would fetch little sis & I on a bicycle for swimming lessons, he would bring us down to the huge drains to catch fish, he would take us to the big empty field to fly kites.

But soon after he was place to work overseas, these activities rarely took place. Mom was the one whom accompanied us, took us to lessons. And after we had a maid, the maid was our companion.

There was once, on my birthday, I wish for dad to be home to cut the cake and sing birthday song with me. It was so disappointed as every year, he was there for my birthday and I was no used to him not being around during my birthday.

Sometimes, as a growing child, I do understand that I had to respect him as my father. In any case, I have to believe that he had the heart for this family and work extra hard for this home.

But for the time which he is absent from home, and only be home over the weekends, or maybe never; I wish he was there with us, at home. He did miss out so much of our growing stage, he did lose out much of our happy laughter.

Because each weekend when he is home, he would be busy changing his bird cage. Washing up his fish tanks, going downstairs to slack at his friend's shop. And when Lon(little brother) came into the family, dad spends most of his weekend with him. While little sis and I would be "nowhere to be found" from home.

I hope that, for the years to come. He would stay right here with us, be with us, and play a role of a father which he's suppose to do.



Godma aka Maa
(My Supporter)


Each time when I'm in need of help, I would turn to her. No matter right or wrong, she would not put the blame on me and would help me. I will go to her to whine about my things, I will skip happily towards her and share with her my happy moments, I will tell part of the happenings in my world to her.

She has no temper, very friendly and caring, that's why she is always make used of. Sometimes, I really feel that she should not be in such situation. But this is life, she's happy with her simple life. And lucky her kids are easily contented.

She's just like a mother to me, she treats me as hers and shower me with her care & love (:

Look at you! I'm not sure if it's just me or is it you? Total clueless about your actions and motives. We seems to be strangers among the crowd, moving against opposite directions. Who are you?

Days are beginning to turn dry and hectic, uninvited loads starting to pile up each day. It's worst when the loads are not suppose to be ours, and that particular one happily, joyfully away! Argh. Hatred growing, nerves bursting, reaching limits. My temper threw daily, complaining & whining throughout, causing my days to be sour. Where's the cheerful girl whom once so look forward to everyday?!

Hiking with family (minus one)

















































































Simple pretty Sunday morning, enjoyed my first ever hiking with my beloved family. Always will we stay as one, nobody gona leave anyone behind. 5 is always 5 (: