It's new year eve, last day of the year. Thinking back, so much things took place this year. And I spent half a year doing nothing much, completing my diploma, waste money and time on the licence. Tomorrow it's a new day, a new year, a brand new start. Gona pull up my socks, and work hard. Enough of breaks, time to hard back to work!

P.S. I felt so sad now. Cos dad says that he's on half day today and ask if I will be going home in the afternoon. But I couldnt make it, hopefully this weekend can make it up to him. Miss him. Not forgetting my other dearest family members!


Happy New Year everyone, 2009 was great, I believe 2010 will be better!

Fish.. Amanda... (Well, it's another "Amanda")

These two names are not often mentioned here. But they're good friends from my poly days. I haven been seeing them for a year or more?! And meeting them, seeing them again is so good. Although I'm kinda quiet and doesnt initiate conversation, but we still managed to do some talking and have some laughing (:

Though the day ended with fish going off first and me accompanied Amanda to Sim Lim to search for her stuff. Walking round and round, up and down, kinda tires me. Still I place that smile on my face and continue walking..

Mr. Boyfriend came to pick me up, kinda relief and happy cause I get to see him after a long day. Hugged Amanda Goodbye and I happily ran to the car :D

It's been so long since I met up with Karen! And so happened that today we chat on MSN, both of us are free so we decided to meet up. Lucky there's no silence moment, didnt feel weird talking or having her around.

Cause sometimes when you didnt contact or speak to someone for a period of time, there will be a distant feeling.

We went from west to town, walked alot, definitely catch up too! And we snapped tons of pictures, she's still the same! Love to camwhore so much.

The girls came over for meet up, MJ session. And sweet Brenden boy made lunch for us (:

Beautiful Sunday!

It's just another weekend but I spent it with my special one. Finally it's day off for Mr. Boyfriend, we went for movie and it sucks. But the meal was great! I love every Sunday!

I enjoy every moment with you!

I feel so low now, wiping my tears, clearing my nose, whining to myself.. as well as comforting myself.

Life really so tough, forces us to choose paths which we dislike, makes us no choice but to take that path.

Life worst enemy and partner is money. Everyone got that love/hate feeling towards money. Some work their whole life yet the return only sufficient for daily meals and bring up family. Some work so little, yet gets huge returns..

I am at the edge point now, placing my heart to search for what I want.. But things always dont turn out my way, it's always able to dream of but never a reality.

I love art, design.. colours.. drawing.. But mom spoilt my dreams. I followed her words, took up Supply Chain. And found out that the industry wasn't how I picture it to be.

Now school is all that I wanted, seriously want to get back to the table and chairs. Pen and pencil, projects and assignments, tests and examinations days. This fast changing world got no space for diploma, degree is like the expected education now. I want to move up higher, work harder.. But how?

Money is always the obstacle. Who is willing to dig that huge sum of money out for me. I swear when I start working I will pay back..

With all the bills and expenses coming in, I feel Mr. Boyfriend getting tense up and stress over money. I really dont want him to take the burden alone, yet I selfishly slowly decide on the jobs available just because I didnt want to spoil my career plans.

Maybe I should just take up whatever job that comes to be, even though I didnt like it, even though it will not be related to my long term career path.. For the sake of money, maybe I should just go for it.

I feel so lost, I wish I could ....

Envy those who can study,
Hate those who doesnt treasure when they can.

University just gives me the feeling of "so near yet so far"

I really dont know what to do.

So sickening!